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Mon Sep 8, 2008, 5:25 PM
this is my rant. i'm pissed, and i don't know who to talk to so i am just writing this. you don't have to read, it probablely wont make sence. but meh, i want to rant.. so here it is:



And now you fucking want me back
Now you realize I was everything?
Now your finally ready to love me?
Why the fuck couldn’t you just love me before?
When all I wanted was you
When I was right there
Telling you to love me back
Now when I’ve started to love someone else
Yes you don’t know, I’ve fallen for someone new
They took the time to fix me
To make me whole, to trust, to be happy
He taught me how to love again,
To move on from you, and slowly I’m falling out of love with you
You only have half my heart, and I don’t know how much longer
I’ll love you.
But one day, and I hope it’s soon.
I can truly say
I don’t love you


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lines for a poem i'm trying to make..

Now my heart is more then broken
Just pieces that can’t be used
No point in fixing while
Half of me is missing

Told you I don’t love you
But still you fight for me
Yes we know I’m lying
But I’m trying to leave

You told me to move on
Cause you were in love with her
So I watched you walk away
And talk half my heart too

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fuck i'm so pissed.. i can't do this.. i really can't
i'm in love with two fucking people..
and if i have to choose, i'm not going to be weak
i'm not going to break down and cry
i'm going to tell her
that she is too late.
and that i'm fighting for someone else
because at least he's willing to not fucking
leave me, when i need someone the most

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~fadingshadow22 Sep 8, 2008, 7:15:53 PM
:hug:
Why is it that when we move on, they realize what a good thing they had?
I don't get it.

But follow your heart...it'll be okay.
:hug:
I'm here if you need to vent.

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x. You are as sick as your secrets x.
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~darkzero18 Sep 8, 2008, 7:47:12 PM
same goes for me. i've been through your situatuion many times and i'm still going through it. it sucks because there is only one time you'll notice you have something good. you'll never get it back if you lose it. stay strong young one.

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I wish my grass was emo. Maybe then it would cut itself.

--
Emos are fun...to push down the up escalator.

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HEY YOU! YES YOU! I'M SHOUTING AT YOU IN THIS BOX!!!
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~Eternaly-Shadowed Sep 8, 2008, 10:10:57 PM
awe sweetie... I'm sorry some ppl are so indecisive when you want them to choose and when they've chosen, you don't agree with it.. call me anytime u need to talk k hun, you know i'm always here for you, no matter what.
Love ya lots

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~*~Eternal-Shadow-Forever~*~
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~Felicity2989 Sep 9, 2008, 4:36:43 AM
oh she did make a choice, and i was fine with it, i walked away like she told me too, i went and moved on, and then she came back out of no where, telling me that i was the only one, that she loved me. i became so confused, and i won't let it happen again because i'm not losing the one person that means a lot to me, i'm not going to let him go, she made her choice, and now i've made mine. and i can't live without him

--
they say i can't live without,
truth be told i can
and one day, i really
won't come back

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in a club, write the world:
[link]
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~Felicity2989 Sep 9, 2008, 4:39:31 AM
oh i'm going to stay strong, i'm not going to run back to her. she told me to leave, she told me to move on, and thats what i am doing. and she came back, thinking that i would take her back. like i always do, and this time i wont. because i'm sick of hurting. and at least my boyfriend won't tell me to leave, or move on. and i can't live without him

--
they say i can't live without,
truth be told i can
and one day, i really
won't come back

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in a club, write the world:
[link]
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~Felicity2989 Sep 9, 2008, 4:44:41 AM
i don't know but it really hurts. i do still love her, and she knows it, she tries to use it against me. tries to make me want her back, does everything that i love about her, but it's not working and she gets upset at me. and i'm just like wtf am i supposed to do, you told me to leave, you told me to move on, so i did and now that i'm halfway there you want me back, now that i've started to finally trust someone else, now that my heart is falling in love with someone new, now you know we are ment to be together, no that snow how it works,

she said things would be different, and my reply was "oh, and how long will you love me this time, 4 months?""how much do you think i can break sam?, you took half my heart with you when you left, my soul fucking died a little bit each time you left.. and now you realize you love me?""well i can't do it anymore sam, i don't want to climb the latter you sent me, because it'll break before i reach the top, and this time i won't survive"

haven't talked to her since.. guess i said some really good stuff

--
they say i can't live without,
truth be told i can
and one day, i really
won't come back

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in a club, write the world:
[link]
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~fadingshadow22 Sep 9, 2008, 10:02:19 AM
:hug:
I would feel the same way.
It's good that you're not getting pulled back into it. Especially if you're happy with your best friend.

Stay strong love.

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x. You are as sick as your secrets x.
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~darkzero18 Sep 9, 2008, 2:36:09 PM
that's a good mind to keep. stay that way. it proves your not a weak person to break down to sudden changes.

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I wish my grass was emo. Maybe then it would cut itself.

--
Emos are fun...to push down the up escalator.

--
HEY YOU! YES YOU! I'M SHOUTING AT YOU IN THIS BOX!!!
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~Felicity2989 Sep 10, 2008, 4:11:50 AM
:) funny i would have broken by now, guess i am stronger then i would have ever realized. hm.. wow

--
they say i can't live without,
truth be told i can
and one day, i really
won't come back

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

in a club, write the world:
[link]
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